i've finally changed my layout! woo hoo! haha. i kinda got tired of seeing ian's beautiful face (since i've stored pics of him on my mp4), so i put up a new one. a skate one.

it's still in the works, because i can't fix the span style thingies, kaya when i have more than one entry a day, there's this big, fat, ugly, green, blank horizontal line that divides the entries. oh mehn! i'm too tired tamad to fix it, so i'll leave it like that. never could make a perfectly done skin. heehee. at least i can call it mine. ♥

and it's a lot less messier than the ian one. haha. my ian skin was messy. this one is squeaky clean...er, as clean as i can make it.

skate forever! ♥


"thank you, BOAR EXPERT!"
[currently my favorite sawyer quote from 'LOST' season one]

tagoink!

Sawyer + Kate = SKATE.

in honor of my favorite TV couple, Sawyer and Kate from LOST, i made two new artworks.

i also made them because i was bored. and i'm still a frustrated ADOBE PHOTOSHOPPER.

got my license today! yay!

well, not exactly. i got my student permit today. haha. that's almost like THE license. astig nga eh, i saw lee and her mom pa! at least SHE's getting hers. i also saw tito tom and his boys, timmy and kier (my partner during the social dancing at school). haha. the medina girls were also there, since ate wena renewed hers. nj and kuya mitch were with us. nj also got his license. haay, dami namin! haha.

i hated the waiting in line thing. i never liked waiting in line. that's my mom's job. eh kaso, i was the one applying for a student permit, so i had no choice.

the trip was what i enjoyed the most. kagulo kasi sa car. mom was like, sabog. as in real sabog. hanggulo! she got her CD and played it sa car. ayus! first song pa lang, "push the button" ng sugababes. then loads of RnB stuff, then yung last two cheerleading type songs. yeah, like "hey, mickey" type of songs. syet. and she was trying to do the booty shake ni beyonce sa car. aaacckkk! that's so NOT my mom! thank God sa car lang, di ba?

tapos ang mahirap pa si kuya mitch kasama. eh pag yun ay sinama kay mama, parang may amats na sila.


nag-ring yung phone ni kuya mitch. may message, and he reads it.

KUYA MITCH
tsk tsk. yan ang ayaw ko pag nag-drive eh.
yung mga quotes na ganyan eh.

MAMA
ha? ano, mitch? anong quotes-quotes ka dyan?

KUYA MITCH
wala, tita. yung tipong,
"ang hindi tumingin sa pinanggalingan, may stiff neck."
at tsaka yung,
"aanhin pa ang damo, kung may dog food naman."
meron pa yun eh, yung
"birds of the same feather..."
basta yun.

MAMA
ah, yung ano,
"birds of the same feather fly away."

KUYA MITCH
oo, pati
"birds of the same feather are happy."
tapos, naalala ko na!
"the family that prays together...
must be in the living room."

ah ah! eh ang hirap ng usapan na yun! syet, wala kang matinong makukuha dun eh!

tapos we went to the gas station. haay...

MAMA
yung Protec, Php500.

GAS BOY
Php500 po?

MAMA
oo. naka-credit card ha.
paki-resibo na.

GAS BOY
sige po, ma'am.
sandali lang po.

MAMA
o sige.
bilisan mo ha.

GAS BOY
opo, sandali lang po.

MAMA
o sige nga.
bilisan mo ha.


haha. hanggulo! kawawa yung gas boy, naguluhan na yata.

then we went to chowking for lunch. mom was saying a lot of stuff, di ko na maintindihan. i busied myself with my food kasi eh. basta, tawa nang tawa silang dalawa ni kuya mitch. ang ingay! up until we were done eating and we were in the car na, ang ingay talaga nila. syet. buti na lang di ako nagmana sa kanya. tagoink!

my second time in a netshop! weee!

i'm with my friends, so ayos lang. kinda uncomfy though, kasi i'm not used to being in a public place to blog or surf the net. i think i promised myself not to go to another netshop ever. not since that time i made takas from our house. hehe.

anyway...ayaw ko talaga mag-blog right now. kasi the whole place makes me feel insecure...eewww! haha. nicer place though, than the last netshop...

can't...get...enough...of...LOST.















syet. Lost is the new drug. blogging comes second. haha. haven't been blogging much, kasi i'm too busy downloadind Lost stuff. since the 'Lost' aired here in 'Pinas (on AXN) is like, more than 10 episodes behind the U.S. one, i've put all my time to downloading clips and blah blah blah about the latest episodes. sheesh, even my mp4's got 'Lost' videos. syet.

anyway, i like it. so what if i can't find people i can talk to about 'Lost' (other than my loser sister...ugh)?

LOST! ♥ ♥ ♥




P.S.
i can't f---ing believe it!
there are like 416 active users online (total of 34 644 members)
at the Lost Forums!
it's the biggest community i've seen ever!

yep, wala lang. katamad na life. hehe. i'm s'pposed ta be in ishkool today. didn't go. went to the grad party last night eh, tamad na ngayon. haha. oh, and i also accompanied my dad to the airport. balik vietnam na sya. me? i'll follow on the 12th of april. bad trip nga eh, nasira yung laptop ni papa. he's got two: one he brings to the office, the other stays at home. eh nasira yung nasa house...so how the hell am i gonna blog?!

just got back from our batch's grad party at anjela's place. the place was just awesome, really. very nice. the pool was great (and, uh...deep). they had the karaoke. there were lots of places where we could just sit and chill out. basta, it was really nice.

we spent most of the time swimming. i brought a bathing suit, pero i didn't use it. i just changed from my pants to shorts, and then i used the shirt i was wearing going to the party. medyo ewan nga lang ako. it was so hot kasi (woo hoo! summer na!), so i wore an artwork shirt. eh shirts there were like, sobrang manipis talaga, kaya mine was see-through. hehe. parang di na rin ako naka-shirt, ayus, two-piece ang dating. haha. feeling...

lotsa food. buhay baboy na!!!

francine, kit's sister, was teaching me how to dive. eh ako, dakilang taga-tawa lang sa mga people na nag-dive. hanggang pag-pose lang talaga ako dun sa may edge na pool. hehe. i did a few attempts, kaya i ended up being on the list of the "philippine diving team." yeah, believe it or not. haha. ako yung diver na hindi pa nga nakaka-dive, like, yung naka-pose pa lang sa diving board, gold medallist na agad. hehe. si em-em pa rin daw yung the best, though.

and then, nung pauwi na ako, puro kalokohan na. haha, kahiya siya for me. di naman kasi nice ang bod ko eh. pero i took off my shirt, kaya, er, a la two-piece talaga. hehe. kahiya. anyway, graduates na kami eh. pwede na kahit ano. haha. tagoink!

after four years of high school...WE. ARE. DONE.

yep, we're done. we're out of high school and off to college. yahoo! freedom! haha. more gimmicks, parties, and better social lives. oh, and more work.

haay, patawa yung graduation rites. nagpractice na kami't lahat-lahat, palpak pa rin yung ibang parts. di sabay tumayo and umupo, there was a moment when we didn't know kung ano isasagot. heehee. nag-practice pa! bit o' a waste o' time. but still, little practice is better than none.

patawa din 'rents ko. i only told them kasi na merit lang award ko. mom looked disappointed. then they saw the program just before we went to school, and then the list of awards and awardees were there. kaya almost the whole time that we were on the way to school, she kept saying stuff about how come she was never told of my awards blah blah blah. haha. hanggulo.

i felt a bit sad kasi some of my classmates came late, kaya they weren't able to march down the carpet. sayang.

graduation ceremony was short. well, considering that we high school grads are only 18, and the grade school grads are only 24, we shouldn't be expecting a long ceremony, right? duh! tagoink!

it was nice, all in all...except for that time when my mom laughed out so loud--like, REALLY loud. some parents and my classmates were like, "fides, mommy mo yun!". syet. kahiya! and then, when i was walking to get my diploma, the medals i wore kept clinking. ang ingay, patawa. heehee. sabi nila sr. edna and nung teachers, "maingay ba? hawakan lang muna, hawakan." haay, naku. graduating na nga ako, puro embarrassing moments pa...

actually, yesterday was really nice. even at home, everyone was nice to me. kasi yesterday, while the stylist fixed my hair and make-up, Lost was on TV. and then martin wanted to watch, eh i was watching, and then my mom was like, "let her finish Lost," to my brother. even when we got home from pancake house in tagaytay (it was VERY cold, by the way), Lost was on again. rerun of the week's episode *sigh*. i was like a little kid, and sabi ko kay mama, "naabutan ko pa yung Lost." and she was like, "oh? umabot ka pa sa Lost? that's nice..." haha. weird. eh before kasi, we kinda fight kasi addicted to Lost na daw ako sabi ni mama...

whew! i'm so happy. grade school's done. high school's done. college na, baybeh!

yeah, roll out the red carpet! haha! 'cause i'm gonna be graduatin' in just a few hours. heehee. proud to be a graduate. naks! akala mo naman kung sinong honor student, eh di man ako umabot sa honorable mention thingies eh. well, kinda owing to the fact na wala naman kasing ganun sa st. scho. boo hoo...

eh basta, graduate na! let's paaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrr-taaaaaaaayyyyy!

hehe. tagoink!




P.S.
i'm so happy.
my dad came home yesterday.
he gave me an mp4.
ayus na.

still waiting for my laptop, dude!
heehee. nyak! tagoink!

yes. i am graduating. after four years of high school, four years of suffering from the hands of those teachers (haha, nah. i was the problem child...er...never mind)...eh basta!

haay, i can feel graduation coming. and i feel the presents coming! yeah baybeh! haha. uh huh, uh huh. oh yeah, oh yeah.

darn, can't concentrate on what to write. as if merong kwenta yung mga sinusulat ko here. anyhoo, my little princess iya is here. yeah, my one and only niece. hanggulo! likut kasi eh! haha. may pinagmanahan.

damn it's hot! summer's here!!!







nyek! vietnam na naman ang tambayan ko nyan. tagoink!

haha. my lil bro martin and i were playing--er, wrestling--on the bed. then he started to cry. akala ko kung ano na naman nagawa ko, eh we were laughing just seconds ago.

ME!
oh, what? you're crying?

MARTIN
yes, because i'm gonna miss you.

ME!
eh i'm not going to die naman, noh! i'm just gonna go to college.

MARTIN
but i'm still gonna miss you. who's gonna play your bass guitar now?


haha. hangkyut talaga ng kapatid ko. mas emo pa kaysa sa 'kin eh! tagoink!

GRADUATION NA!!!

syet! after tomorrow, it's D-Day. yeah. oooh, i'm scared. mommy!!!

haha. hinde naman. ayos lang, actually. at least i get loads of gifts and presents and stuff. haha. yun lang naman habol ko eh. hope it's a laptop from mom and dad. right, like that'll happen. waah! basta magandand gift ayos na. basta may gift!

haha. me being shallow. that's just sad. gusto ko na lang ng original DVD ng 'Lost' para may features. heehee. yung features lang hanap ko. please...anybody?

anyhoo. it sucks that we still have classes tomorrow. i mean, it's friday. grad's on saturday. tomorrow should be rest day! instead, there are still rehearsals. weh, if i know, they'll miss us lang naman kasi eh. hehe. they want to keep us in school for as long as they can. aww...nyak! ang feeling ko! haha. hey, maybe it's true.

sana.

i don't feel like leaving yet.

my little post. all about the vanity of the me. haha.



haha. my mates' vanity was contagious. *no offense, mates!* and also because meron na kaming matinong memory card for the digicam. it's pics galore! yeah, baybeh! tagoink!

i'm blogging again--at last! yahoo!

it's been--what?--almost a week since i last blogged. sheesh! i felt so bad since napakatagal ko nang hindi nag-blog. i missed it, hehe. anyhoo, so happy na ako. very busy kasi these past few days, preparing for graduation and that tribute to the parents. kahiya talaga yun! i spent most of my time just fixing the powerpoint presentation for the teachers. kahirap pala yun! pero ayus naman, we showed it during the tribute.

speaking of the tribute, never again mangyayari yun! i swear! they shouldn't allow kids like me to behumiliated by the parents. haha. paano ba naman, sumayaw ang nanay ko! kung ballroom pa nga lang, kahiya-hiya na eh, eh yung sinayaw nila "beep" by the pussycat dolls. langhiya! anu daw? eh kaming kids nga yung dance numbers namin yung old songs like "let's groove tonight" and "shake your groove thing" eh! grabeh talaga! then, when "beep" ended, nag-exit yung moms sa left side ng dance area, tapos yung mom ko nag-exit sa right. yun pala patakbo siya towards me. kaya ako, tumakbo away from her. heehee. nag-lock ako sa CR, kaso natakot ako mag-isa, kaya lumabas din ako. haha. kahiya kasi eh, sumayaw siya! pati yung mga teachers pinagtinginan ako! nyak! huhuhu. say goodbye to my reputation. hello, public humiliation.

at least tapos na yung tribute. haha. so happy na.

grad practice na naman today. how come whole day yung practice, eh kaya naman na half-day lang? pinapapasok kami for one whole day, eh wala din naman kwenta yung first few practices. buti na lang andun si ms. whenn kanina, at least mas may sense na yung practice. you kinda know it's going somewhere, hindi lang yung practicing for nothing.

i miss seeing josh and matthew. ♥

went to the studio today. galing ng usapan eh. sabi 01.00pm magkikita sa studio. i came at a little past one o'clock--like, 01.04pm. i was the first pa! i saw lee getting out of their car. she was the one who drove pala. then loraine asked if i was already at the studio. when i said yeah, she replied to say she was on her way out of the house na daw. wow. 'stig talaga pag pinoy time.

anyway, it was kinda like a waste of time at the studio, because it was only angge, lee, loraine and me during the first hour. we were supposed to practice at 01.00pm, it got moved to 03.00pm because lee's cousin was gonna have a lesson at 02.00pm. orayt, fine.

eh di hintayan na lang sa studio. finally everyone arrived at a little after 02.00pm. i'm not really much of a time-conscious person, pero i really hate wasting my time for nothing. i got kinda pissed off kasi magulo sa oras. pero anyway...mga friends, pagpasensiyahan na po ninyo ako ha, i just have a thing on being on time eh. heehee. sowee.

so, anyway, on to rehearsals. i so did not feel the songs. "someone's watching over me" by hilary duff and "ugly" by the sugababes. i'm really not into all those pop songs eh. but...my mates like it, so i guess i should like it na rin. the problem was i didn't know the song by duff. nahirapan tuloy ako. kaya lalo ako na-bad trip. letsch kasi, di naman nagbigay ng time for practice. the tribute's like, on tuesday. we're only starting to practice now?! and talk about the sound system. the school's sound system sucks--big time. haay...pahiyaan na toh.

i went down to the dining room to ask my mom if i could use the computer. it was only 08.15am, and she was having breakfast while also talking to our labandera. so i stood in the kitchen, by the fridge, waiting for her to finish her sermon. i can be nice enough not to butt in when she's the one talking (you so don't want to know what comes next when i butt in...).

so anyway, there i was, standing like the idiot that i am, waiting. she keeps on talking and talking, i dunno where the conversation--uh, her talk--is going. but i wait.


and wait.



and wait.


i busied myself by watching the clock. i by 08.30am, i was starting to wonder if my mom even knew i was there. whatever. i can be patient. i can wait. my mom didn't show signs of stopping, though. she kept talking on and on. thank God my grandpa finally came to the room for breakfast, and our labandera had to go (she had been sitting at my grandpa's chair--nobody else sits at his chair when he's there).

finally, i was able to talk to my mom. it was 08.40am.

ME
mom, i've been standing here for 25 minutes.
you've been talking for 25 minutes.
and all i'm waiting for you to say is
a "YES" so i can use the computer.
so can i use it now?

MAMA
huh?


what the--?! that was all she can say after making me wait--and stand!--for 25 minutes?! syet!


ME
pwede. ba. gamit. ko. computer?

MAMA
ahh. yun lang pala eh.
later, 09.00am.
can you turn it on na rin, please?
i'll be using it muna before 09.00am.


letsch! after 25minutes...yun na ang answer nya? that's just so...damn it!

and guess what?! 09.00am came and went, and she was still on the computer! plus, she had to restart it because of some problems blah blah blah. she was taking my time! she'd like, teach me about punctuality and time management and respecting time...tapos siya...grrr!

thanks a lot, ma. really.

i wanted my time kasi later i'm going down to the studio for another rehearsal ng band, for the tribute sa school. weh, like we'd be able to practice much. i heard nexphase is recording, so mas important naman yun. hopefully guro would be able to teach me what i need to play. haay...graduating na nga kami in a week, hanggang ngayon ba naman, school peeps are still harrassing us.




i knew it.





they are so going to miss our batch. haha. tagoink!

i wants ta relaaks and wats a moovey. parang so kafagood kasi ishkul for samm reezons. wyrd nga eh, kasi wee dunn do muts anyway, pero at da end of da dei, so fagood ako.

malas ko pah, beecuz my camyra's battry went emfty. syuut. eh di i wuzn't able to teyk piktyurs in ishkul. zayang!

i'm kindza haffee naman, beecuz i wuz able to sleef kanina sa guidance offiz. syort nap lang, pero bettur than no nap at all, duh buh? had ta go kasi eh, for grad rehearsals.

i can fiil grad comeing. lafeet na, one weeks ta go, and i'm outta hayiskul! yeah, baybeh!

boredom kills. in an instant.
i can kill for boredom. syet.

it's weird that i am so tired, yet i'm bored. can you be tired because of bumming around?! heehee. siguro. kung ang baboy napapagod, eh di ang mga taong buhay baboy like me ay pwede rin! haha. chorny! nyak!

anyway, we had a little seminar today. and there's the best word to describe it: BORING! sobra! i mean, i don't want to sound so nasty and meanie, but it was just so...ugh! so boring! haay, i didn't enjoy it one bit. it was out of shame na lang that i tried to listen. i don't blame the speaker, ayos lang naman siya eh...i think. i probably had just gone to one talk too many. nasobrahan na, sunud-sunod eh.

bad trip pa, i forgot my money at home! i had my wallet, pero walang laman. buti na lang i had a spare twenty peso-bill inside my bag. it's been in there since ever, and i finally got to use it. nahiya kasi ako umutang sa mates ko--magagalit si mama. she always tells me not to borrow money from anybody as much as possible. kung umutang man daw ako, i have to pay to the last centavo. so...i had banana cue for recess, and two packs of those sumo cotton candy biscuits for lunch. yum!

the afternoon started out well, though. the dorm girls (that's us!) went to the guidance office, our dorm. medyo mga walang hiya na kami eh, pumapasok na lang dun kahit wala si miss tin-tin. anyhoo...so we were planning on taking a little nap, kaso we started doing chika-chika, eh di hindi na nakatulog! pero bilib ako kay aya, nakatulog sa kaingayan namin! heehee. astig! si kristina kinuha yung pwesto ko! hmp! tsk, tsk. wala tuloy ako higaan. hehe. then loraine, nins, gisele, and i started to compose our theme song. the dorm girls' theme song. the title is "a pig's life"--a spin from the disney film "a bug's life." it has a subtitle pa, "buhay baboy." sadly, we forgot the tono of the song, but we have the lyrics...



RAP:

kumakain, natutulog, o walang ginagawa
nakatambay sa guidance office nang up to sawa
nagagalit na si miss tin pero wala siyang magawa
hinahanap ni miss connie pero di niya makita
all day, everyday nakatambay kami sa dormitoryo (dormitoryo)

CHORUS:

buhay baboy!
(si gisele at si fides!)
buhay baboy!
(si gisele at si fides!)
buhay baboy!
(si gisele at si fides!)
buhay baboy
(si gisele at si fides!)

BRIDGE:

baboy, baboy, ba!
baboy, baboy, ba!
baboy, baboy, ba!
baboy, baboy, ba!




aheehee. yung bridge, same ng tono nung "bebot" by apl of the black eyed peas. haha. basta. kulang pa yan eh, sana bukas we'll be able to add some more to it. and hopefully we remember the melody and tone of the chorus.

tagoink!

finally! we are seeing some work going on! yahoo!

i'm never really much of the workaholic type, but i am so happy that we're finally rehearsing for graduation rites. grabeh! i waited so long just to do something. tamad ako for the tribute to the parents, pero i'm eager to finish graduation practice. haha. ewan ko, basta feel ko na ang grad! haay. ewan, basta ganun.

it was also inchican day today. our last inchican day. kristina and i made the kids write farewell letters to us. halos pare-pareho yung sbi nila, but touching all the same. i'll miss my grade five kids, pero ang talagang mamimiss ko is benjie. aww, my little boy benjie. anak ko yun eh, hehe. i did get a picture with him, so...i'm happy. post ko mamaya sa aking gallery (kung may time)here!

haha. benjie boy. miss you.

i miss josh, too. and his dimples. ♥
i miss matthew, too. and his charm. ♥
i miss ian, too. and his cutesieness. ♥

haha! tagoink!

yeah, CHORNY. as in corny with an 'h'. heehee. fine, sige, corny na kung corny. chorny ko talaga! haha! chorny! kulit!

the dorm girls and i spent most of the day sa guidance office. no, we were not in trouble. mababait kami eh. haha. we were just there for "buhay graduate"--more commonly known as "buhay baboy." haha. chika-chika, laro, tulog, kain. then ulit lang nang ulit. ang saya noh?

i'm really hoping we wouldn't have to go to school na, since we're not really doing anything. maybe tomorrow we will. i hope so. i spent the first quarter of the day in the library, reading nathaniel hawthorne's "house of senven gables." i didn't finish it, though--i only got through the first chapter.

we had song practice. kulit pala ng grade six! grabeh! ang liligalig! pero ayos lang naman. hindi naman sila mahirap pagsabihan eh.

yung songs para sa grad--ah ah. ang taas ng tono! heehee. hangin na nga lang lumalabas sa akin, pumipiyok pa! anu ba yun?! sabi na eh--anak ako ng nanay ko. kahit "twinkle, twinkle, little star" di pa makanta sa tono basta si mama! haha. it's true, i've heard her, uh, sing.

anyway, announcement ng awardees today. astig ni loraine--lahat na yata nahakot. si ailora and si nanay galing-galing--best catechists! oh, duh buh? kaya proud ako kay nanay eh! si ana, as expected--theater and visual arts awards. paano ba naman, sino makakatalo sa petruchio niya?! astig yata yun noh! a lot of other people got awards--angge, jane, lee, anjela, kit. sorry kung di ko malagay lahat. baka may na-miss out ako--tag me para malagay ko name nyo! haha.




tagoink!

miss connie said free time na lang daw yung afternoon namin. tomorrow na lang ang start ng practices. so we went to the library to hang out.








then she said bumalik na daw kami ng classroom--may pag-uusapan daw kami about the program for tribute to the parents. huh? nasaan na napunta yung free time???



school is becoming more and more boring. i slept in the library, nanaginip pa nga ako eh. i just forgot what i dreamt about, basta i know i did. heehee. then i finished reading a book, "Parvana's Journey." it was really nice. it was the story of a young afghan girl who journeyed through war-torn afghanistan in search for her family. so sad, pero in the end, i felt a sense of redemption because she did find her family. i like those kinds of stories--redemption stories.

we also had the song choosing thingy. yung song namin hindi ko talaga ma-gets yung beat. naiba kasi yung counting eh. pero in the end, they picked it (no thanks to me, of course, panira ako nung song eh). i was so hoping we'd sing ana's song! hangkyut eh! hehe.

i also got my paper in debate, the oral defense thing. 87%?! syet. pretty low, compared to most. accepted ko naman. i just can't forgive myself for the grade. i re-read through the comments, and i realized what most probably dragged my grades: yung "manner" part. kasi the comment was needs clarity and volume. letschTM! then i remembered--i had sore throat during that time! syet talaga! what was i supposed to do?! so unfair that i had to have sore throat at the time of my defense--which is like, exam! haay...oh well, wala na. tapos na. yun na yun.

on the funnier side, my mom told me some news today. my old teacher called her up asking if i can be the speaker para sa graduation ng nursery kids. heehee. me? speaker?! get out! poor kids. teacher darcy called me up, kasi i'm from nazarene nursery school eh, and she wanted me to speak daw sa graduation nung kids. haha. mom said next year na lang, kasi it's on the same day as our tribute to the parents. so...yeah. poor kids.


tagoink!

my acknowledgement page for my research paper. i'm not sure if i'll put it in or not...



Acknowledgements

This research paper would not have been complete without the following people:

My family—for putting up with my excessive use of the computer at home (I am so not working on my paper in some funny-smelling netshop where people keep watching me while I work—ugh, the nerve of them!); and for not chucking me out of the window whenever I’d protest about why Jinx and JM got to use the damn thing and I never got to.

My friends and classmates—for all those discussions about Veronika Decides To Die; and for all those fun times at the library writing our papers. Remember “An Introduction,” and “A Conclusion.”

Kuya Joel—for those ideas about my thesis statements. How come you’re in my acknowledgements? You were in the acknowledgements of the Pioneers last year!

Ms. Kathy—for helping me out in making my first-ever research paper; and for letting me continue with Veronika Decides To Die, and not with Fifth Mountain...and for making me all scared about ever committing plagiarism (haha!).

I’d seen the pioneers’ papers, which they did last year, and they had acknowledged their boyfriends and boy friends. Unfortunately, I have neither of those, nor did I find one by the time of this paper’s submission, so I’m just going to give recognition to some guys who I don’t personally know, but have become inspirations in making this paper:

J. J. Abrams—for creating Lost, my current TV show addiction. Many thanks for creating a show that made me see how people of different cultures and beliefs (those “insane” survivors, with the island as the “asylum”) can learn to live together despite their differences. More than this, many thanks for putting two hot guys on the show, Matthew Fox (Jack) and Josh Holloway (Sawyer). I just have to ask: Why, oh why, did Ian Somerhalder (Boone) have to die?

Tom Shadyac and the whole cast and crew of Patch Adams—for helping me see past the world’s “sanity” and “insanity”; and for making me understand that there’s nothing wrong with walking around town wearing a big, red clown nose (at least now I know I can do that more often...).

Lastly, Paulo Coelho—for writing Veronika Decides To Die. I thought my life was boring, and Veronika taught me that I should allow a bit of insanity into my life...Look at me now, I’m walking around in a straight jacket.

I am trying to sound as serious and formal as I can. I hope my acknowledgement reflects how serious I am, both as a student and as a person. [There are only two sentences here—this is a hanging paragraph, so I’m going to add just one more sentence to make it a REAL paragraph.] Yes, believe me, I’m the most serious person in the whole world—the most mature, too.

mama and papa were talking about where it'd be best to treat mr. vietnamese guy for dinner.

PAPA
sa paseo kaya?

MAMA
sa ano na lang,
dun sa may santa rosa estates.
uhm, rose and anne's.

ME!
rose and grace's, ma!
si grace yung kapatid ni rose,
hindi si anne!

MAMA
ah, oh ayun!
rose and grace's!


heehee. patawa! tagoink!

my family and i went to alabang town center (then festival supermall, as usual) to tour papa's vietnamese friend. as we were going to el cielito inn to pick up papa's friend, we did our usual prayers on the road. 'cause we pray everytime we go somewhere, like to the mall. basta pag nakalabas na ng gate ng subdivision, we turn off the radio and pray. loser jinx usually leads the prayer.

LOSER
our prayers for today is for the intention of tin-tin, who is sick. we pray for her speedy recovery, and that she is okay na. she's very makulit, but she's our little angel...

what?! "...she is okay na," and "she's very makulit." uh huh. kausapin daw ba nang conyo si God? heehee. hanggulo!

pero i am pretty bummed out with the whole thing--tintin's like, just 3 years old, and she's been in and out of the hospital more often than i have been. actually, i've never been confined in a hospital. she has dengue daw. syet. when bad things happen to little people...hope she gets well soon.

P.S.
tintin is the youngest
among the ocampo insans.

i'm bored to death.

no. i'm bored to death life.

you know when you get too much of a good thing? it gets plain boring. when i was at home, i went online...when i got to school i went online...until now i'm online...i wanna do a lot, and it'd be cool to still go online, kaso dito kasi mahirap. i don't own the computer eh. so i can't save pictures or whatever. syet.

anyhoo. never mind. i'm online, be happy! celebrate! yeah!

i seriously don't know what to type anymore. i wanna download videos of LOST, kaso this damn computer don't got RealOne player, it ain't fast enough, and it ain't mine. shoot. i wanna go home. i gotta make some blogskins pa. woo hoo. i miss photoshop cs.

by the way, i still gots ta revise my research paper in ELA. right. i forgot all about that. anyway, who cares? i'll do it later. in the morning. like, 0100am or something. my time on the computer. always in the early morning.

i wanna go home. pero it's great here in school din, because all my friends are here. madaming katatawanan.


sige na, ako na may kasalanan. lagi na lang ako. akala ninyo di kayo nakakasakit, pero nasasaktan na ako ha.

letschTM! loka na ako! windang! haha. tagoink!

OMG! so inis huh! i'm in the eskwela kaya hindi me maka-watch ng LOST on axn! darn talaga! pero it's a rerun naman of the season 2--episodes 1&2 eh, so i'm not really missing anything...









...except josh's dimples and matthew's voice.





...and evangeline's laugh.






OMG! obssession na toh. pero still, i don't have much pakialam.

i like LOST.
i L♥VE LOST.

you know what's so letsch? it's, like, so bagal the oras. as in. yah. like, i'm losing track of the oras because it's so bagal. i make isip that it's a saturday, pero it's a biyernes. so gaggy, noh?

haha. it's so kainis talaga! and you know what? we'll be, like, making iwan na the school in a few weeks, pero it's like, many taon pa before we do. so gulo! pero i feel, like, i'm, like, leaving na soon. syet ha. i'll make iwan na the school, and my barkada and i are, like, going hiwa-hiwalay na. OMG talaga!

grabeh! parang, it's like, so tagal before graduation. it's not that gusto na me mag-graduate, pero it's like, weird kasi eh. sobra. yah.

until ngayon, i'm not sure which university gusto me mag-study. most likely, UST. it's okay na rin, it's a magandang school naman eh. hehe.

aww, i wish it's monday na. yah, lunes! haha. so i can make panood na LOST! i'm so adik na to that palabas, i dunno why. so gwapo kasi matthew fox and josh holloway eh. and ian somerhalder, kaso he's not on the show anymore. pero, it's like, okay by me. i make panood him on the reruns, and i already made pa-effect to my dad to buy me a LOST DVD. hehe.

so lapit na grad. my thoughts always tend to return to grad. bakit kaya? senior na kasi. eh not sure pa nga me if me is graduating eh, duh buh? malay...pero hopefully, i'll graduate. haha.

i am so not, like, looking forward to the next week. so boring kasi, all practices. sana naman we make gawa something other than practice making upo and tayo during grad. heehee. or better yet, sana i do ayos with the sitting down and standing up. baka yun na lang, i like, don't do ayos pa. so kakahiya na.

ayun. i'll probably not make sulat much, kasi there's nothing that happens much. so boring my life na! OMG! paano na yan?! syet ha. that would be so letsch! wait na lang until pagkatapos ng grad--sa vacation. marami happenings pag bakasyon eh. hmm...

***
canteen, luch time.

ME!
ano nga yong tawag dun sa
seafood na kinukuha sa shell na green?

AILO
seaweed!

haha. patawa talaga si ailo. she only made rinig kasi "...na green," kaya she made sagot seaweed. heehee. tsk tsk. another memorable punchline from my seatmate...tagoink!





P.S.
oist, binibini!
(haha, lee! weh!)
how is life?
live single.
live great.

love bein' single.
it's free.

ahh. finally. peace--which lasts for approximately two minutes. haha.

nah, i just spent the whole day having recollection. our class did--our graduation recollection. really nice. i died. then i had my eulogy, and everybody said a lot of nice stuff about me. i felt good hearing what they had to say, and i felt better having to say something nice to my classmates and making them feel good about themselves. now i can die happily...



of course, now i can't. there's still too many projects to do, so i'll just have to postpone death. hehe. pagkatapos na lang ng entrepreneurship and health projects. nyaha.


i'd have loved to make kwento about the reco, but now i gotta get back to work. i'm still waiting for ailora's email. she did the last parts of our health project. nahihiya na ako sa kanya. haha. thanks, ailo.

ze exams eez fin! oui, haha!

i can finally rest. may i rest in pieces.

















tagoink!

syet.

i was trying to encode all my notes in economics. magulo kasi yung handwriting ko sa notebook, since i was rushing to write down everything ms. det was discussing. kaso, i hadn't even filled a whole page when i decided to stop. it's no use. instead of making things faster since i'm using the computer and not rewriting stuff, lalo lang ako bumabagal. i was taking more time trying to figure out what i wrote down than in typing them all in--and believe me, i'm no fast typing kid.

my handwriting in my notebook sucks--big time. usually, i write alright. not so neat, because erasures are my bestfriends in the whole wide world, but all in all, my handwritings fine. kaso i take so much time just writing a whole sentence down. as in sobrang bagal ko magsulat. poor me.

pero sa eco, ang bilis ko nga magsulat, hindi ko naman maintindihan. i don't have erasures, i think--or i just simply can't distinguish between what's an erasure and what's actually a word. haay...

kanina, i typed in "how" instead of raw. then, "in" instead of is.

naduling pa ako. i wrote "support"--eh dapat enhance. ang nabasa ko kasi yung sa second item eklat. sheesh.


so i gave up. haha. magtiyatiyaga na lang ako sa notes ko...








of course, there's also the fact that a re-run of last night's second season premiere of LOST is on...haha...



nakaharap ako sa TV, pero i'm in front of the computer. haha, gets?! nyak!





JACK is LOVE...♥
SAWYER is LOVE...♥
BOONE is LOVE...♥

i luv ian. haha. ♥

i did another layout--in honor of the premiere of the second season of LOST! aww, yeah! LOST, beybeh! haha. i was even gonna celebrate by making wallpapers and stuff, kaso no time. exams eh. haha. i'm blogging tapos iniisip ko yung exams?! riiight...

anyway, my new skin! haha. it's not yet done-done. it's kinda hard to read since it's too much to the left. pero, anyways. basta nakikita yung face ni pretty boy ian somerhalder, masaya na ako. haha. i'll still be using my jack&sawyer skin, pero next time na. i'm enjoying ian...(wha-? anu ibig sabihin niyan? haha!)...haay...

sige, yan na nga muna. i can't wait for LOST season two. for now, i'm gonna busy myself with math and cle. haha. kain muna bago lahat.



P.S.
p.e. exam da best! haha. sabi ni miss connie, may practical test daw kami! weh! react yung buong klase. pagdating ni miss fritzy, buti na lang di niya kami tinawanan. sabi lang niya, "sobra naman kayo mag-react ha!". excuse lang pala niya yung "practical exam" para siya yung mag-proctor. etong dakilang adviser kasi namin masyado kami mahal, siya na lang daw bantay namin. eh kung si miss connie bantay, wala na open notes. eh miss fritzy came up with the whole "practical exam" thing--kaya siya bantay, open notes yung exam. haha. yeah! parang yung entrepreneurship test ni sir santos. haay. sana noon pa nauso yung open notes.



haha. ang haba naman nung postscript. heehee. tagoink!

i am officially done with my research paper! yeah! finally! so tomorrow--no wait, later--all i gotta do is study for physics and filipino.

then on monday, it's the premier of LOST season 02! yes! yes! yes! good thing it's math and cle on tuesday, not too heavy. haha. yabang...but no, really, compared to physics it is. haha. basta may calculator, papasa! yesh!

now, i'm gonna go spend some time making the most out of the computer. magpakasaya na, kasi after exams, wala na. haha. bagsakan na grades...

by the way, i passed BA Journalism at UP Diliman. weh?! it's cool, pero papayag ba mom ko? of course...

















...NOT.

i'll be in UST taking up BS Nursing. ano na kaya nangyari dun sa UP Manila test ko? hehe. nursing din yun. pero anyway, magkakagulo pag nag-UP ako. sasabog tatay ko eh. Ateneo na lang! haha. riiight.

whatever. basta, paper. yun na yun. haha. labo ba?

i'm done with my research paper! yay! i'm just proofing now, and pasting the pieces together. i still gotta check my sources, though. may mga nakalimutan pa yata ako eh. hehe. haay...

plus, exams are on monday until wednesday, so that means i'm swamped with work from today until tomorrow--not to forget the rest of the day on monday and tuesday--just to study for exams. seryoso na 'toh, or at least as serious as i can get with my studies, which probably wouldn't help me get any honors. who the hell cares about honors anyway?!


i just care about LOST season 02, which premieres on monday at 10.00pm-12.00mn! yeah! puyatan na!

my 100th post! haha. ayus. wala lang.

i am in the computer room--again. hehe. kinda like free time, since ms. kathy is in a meeting daw. ayuys lang, blog ulit. my only concern is that i was planning on consulting with her my research paper. syet. what if it sucks?

"if you're paper sucks, don't expect a good grade."--ms. kathy. basta yan sabi niya, or something like that. hmp! threats, threats...

gusto ko lang naman matino research paper ko. preparation for college...bahala na nga. wala din naman ako magagawa. i don't make my grade. she makes it. alll the teachers make it, kahit na ano png sinasabi nila na fault ng student kaya low grades niya. teachers tend to be subjective...haay...

TLE day again. of course, it was all about jam, jam, and more jam. hehe. but instead of cooking jam, we did our little project--thinking of our own jam. we designed our own jars, and made a label for it. we decided what flavor it would be, blah blah blah.

haha. here's a list of the jams we made. the biggest-selling jams in the world:

AILORA
space jam (alien! oooohhh)

LEE
jamlet (wee jam!)

LORAINE
trojam (as in trojan war)

ANGGE
jamington (smash! badminton!)

ME!
jamerican idol (simon's favorite!)


haha. kalokohans. i'm promoting my own jam: JAMERICAN IDOL. it'll make you sing like the stars! haha. comes in three flavors--strawberry simon, pineapple paula, and...









*everyone's favorite*








...randy rambutan! haha. weh! (haha, lee! "weh!").







sabog talaga ako ngayon. i need a break from my research paper.

MAMA
hindi mo ba alam yun, em?
"give to caesar what belongs
to caesar...?"

ME
eh wala naman ako pakialam
kay caesar eh!
give to me what belongs to me,
and i won't give you anything.
wala naman ako paki sa iba eh!
hahahahaha!

sawa ka na ba
sa mga hassles ng buhay mo?
ayaw mo na bang mag-isip para sa sarili?

tinatamad ka na bumiyahe?
ang gusto mo'y nakahiga na lang
nagsasawa ka na ba
sa kakayakap sa
asawa mo?



WANTED: SUPERPROXY for me
aged 16-17
5"-5"1 in height
knows how to do my homeworks
is good in math (because i'm not)
can work under pressure
able to chuck my sister out of the house
can make my mom stop nagging me
can answer ms. whenn's questions in physics
knows how to make a research paper

most importantly...




if you fit this description, email me.



save me. please.

why does it always rain on me???



ever felt tired of living? hassle, noh?! katamad na. mamatay na nga lang, mas madali pa. nagpapakahirap ka, eh wala rin naman. you'll lose. you'll always lose. you never win, because other people would only drag you down down down...





letschTM na buhay toh.



especially when you do something nice. something na hindi naman for your own happiness. kung kelan ka nagpapakabait, kung kelan ikaw na yung gagawa ng sacrifice, inaabuso naman ng iba. wag na lang din kaya magpakabait? maging selfish na lang, mas nakukuha mo pa yung gusto mo.



oh well. nandito na ako eh--buhay pa rin. what gives?



SHIT HAPPENS.

yahoo! miss jane isn't here, so health class is spent researching for our paper's data eklat. haha.

happy happy! and my blog's working na! i forgot to change the url of my background image pala. sa computer lang namin nakalagay. i uploaded it to photobucket, kaso when i copy-pasted the template from notepad to blogger, i forgot to change the address of the picture. haha. ishtupid!

anyway...ayus na. yahoo! i'm so happy. i'm kinda doing every possible thing i can para lumaganap ang addiction to LOST!

speaking of which, it's gonna end na later. the re-runs of season one, i mean. hehe. tapos na...season two na. letsch nga lang, coz it's gonna be on 06march. eh 10.00pm-12.00am yun. i can bear staying up late for it, it's just that i got exams the next day. paki ko ba sa exams?! haha. LOST muna.

hangkyut ni josh (sawyer) kahapon! heehee. nakatali yung hair niya. half-pony. haha.

last monday, he was cutting wood--shirtless, sweaty, and wet.
yesterda, he went on a bit of a swim--shirtless, drenched, and wet.




haha. pervy.


matthew (jack) din. such a hottie. heehee.


i dig older men. nyahaha!







*i miss ian (boone).*