.random rant.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007

whatev.

"shut up and just kiss me."











god, i freakin' forgot where i heard that line before. it's been bugging me since monday. i like that line pa naman. help, anyone?

and you! yeah, you, love. i miss your, uhm...basta i miss you. alam mo na yun. ;)



shut up and just kiss me. damn, whatta line.
the doctor is out
3:31 PM
.of red shurts and fliff-floffs and FPotW.
Saturday, February 24, 2007

i have this red shirt which people say look good on me. maybe it's the color. haha, whatev. basta i look good daw pag suot ko yun.

...so maybe i should buy six more of it. so i can wear one everyday and i'd look good! and people would think i'm so poor i only have one shirt to wear for the week. or they would think i don't wash the shirt anymore! cool! ahaha!

idiot. yep, idiot. that's me--proud to be. ha!

oh, and i just got home from manila. and i left my havs (technically, they're loser's havs; mine are here at home, pero i use hers kasi they're a tad big for her anyway) sa dorm. see? idiot. now i'm walking around the house barefoot.

well. kahit naman may flip-flops i still walk around the house barefoot. ahaha. idiot.

regarding the Favorite Person of the Week, champ is still my fave. guess who's my fave na?


*drum roll*


sweetier! haha. because...just because. ;)

oh, i did see champ last night! sweetier got us tickets to the concert sa plaza mayor. performers included hale, sugarfree, hilera, slapshock, and rivermaya. i didn't get to watch rivermaya, though. stupid curfew. *rawr* nyaha.

idiot. proud to be.
the doctor is out
3:41 PM
.i bite, he bites.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007

*rawr*

"my name is symphorian. i am a christian."

the most profound, deepest line from the play. wow. -_-
haha.

we did a play yesterday, about the persecution of christians during the age of the roman empire. i got to be beast chow--lion chow, food for the beast. yum. simply put, i played the martyr germanicus. nyaha.

guess who got to eat me? pepe! haha. beast.

seriously, i had no idea how the hell we were gonna pull it off! i didn't know kung ano ba gagawin nyang whatever thingy as beast. basta i stood there, with glen as the soldier, tapos glen was like, "very well, bring out the beast!" and i dunno kung ano ginawa ni pepe. he danced pa daw?! what the--?!

basta he "attacked" me--no, the guy didn't kiss me. mukha bang ganun?! darn. people nga naman...haha. tss.

*i am he-man! hear me roar!* nyaha.
the doctor is out
6:57 PM
.my FPotW.
Saturday, February 17, 2007

yep, got a new Favorite Person of the Week! haha.

and this week's FPotW award goes to...



*drum roll*




CHAMP. haha.

yep, yep. champ of hale. nyahaha. no, i'm not a big fan of the band. but he's a really nice guy--so i've heard.

last sunday kasi, it was family day 2007 at st. scho-westgrove. hale was invited to play, and they were supposed to play at around 5pm or something like that. eh i had to go back to the dorm na at 3pm. so no chance to see them. actually, ang gusto ko sana makita si chino, haha. anyhoo, so since mama's like, one of the parent-officers who got to go backstage and take care of the band and all, nakikita nya sila champ. i think my sister got to hang out with 'em, i dunno. who cares. basta ganun. then nung paalis na si champ (they had a gig at sm santa rosa), hinatid siya ni mama and a few other parent-officers.

CHAMP: thank you for inviting us to play.
MOM: thank you also.
(other parents say thank you's and goodbye's.)
MOM: oh, by the way, you know i have a daughter. she wanted to see you play kaya lang she had to go back to her dorm na.
(Champ gives my mom a kiss on the cheek.)
CHAMP: for your daughter.

aww. i got a kiss from champ. er--sort of. wahaha! god, i love february. ♥
the doctor is out
10:19 AM
.debut part two.

okay. fine. i guess the debut is pushing through no matter what. darn.

anyway, i'm fixing up the list. ho hum. waah!

shiiit.
the doctor is out
9:54 AM
.debut.
Friday, February 16, 2007

debuts are shit. who knew?

shit. shit. shit.


sino ba naman kasi nagsabing gusto ko magdebut? with the 18 roses and 18 candles and 18 other whatever crap! gah. i hate. in the first place, the money for the debut was s'pposed to be just given to charity na lang. that was the plan. so what the hell caused all the talks about debut?! grr. i hate.

i am so not in a party mood. syet.
the doctor is out
10:20 PM
.my Hurley BEAR.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007

no, it doesn't have anything to do with gummi bear noh! nyahaha.

my Hurley BEAR is my date. and we met today, valentine's day. aww.
aack. BEAR is my frog. yah. my bloated-with-formalin, flabby-skinned, jubungous genie frog-in-a-bottle. oh ha!

he's whole name is Hurley Brutus Eros Augustus Romanus the frog. or Hurley BEAR, for short. BEAR the frog.

i was s'pposed to name him Monkey the Frog, kaya lang i call someone Monkey. and i can't dissect Monkey! i like Monkey! i love Monkey!

anyway, happy hearts' day to everyone!

thank you for the gift, Mommee!

thank you for the rose, Monkey! ♥
the doctor is out
5:34 PM
.im-mashing!.

haha. time machine. ime-machine. im-mashing! haha.
okay, nevermind. para kay "Jen!" lang yan. nyahaha.

kilala nyo ba si ederlyn?
eh si "Jen!" kilala nyo? wahaha.
oist, sino ba kasi yun?



i am so gonna beat you over that "Jen!" thing--for life. haha! XP "Lnve u, gmma r."
the doctor is out
5:06 PM
.naghahabol ng kotse.
Saturday, February 10, 2007

i am practicing my eenglische-noypi translating skills. (nag-eensayo ako ng aking kakayahan sa pagsasalin ng ingles sa filipino). i so need it. (ako'y sobrang nangangailan nito). because we have this stupid noypi project that i just super hate. (dahil mayroon kaming *^#*%$* proyekto sa filipino na kinasusuklaman ko).

gah, shit. i know i'm an idiot with this. i'm stickin' to french. merde.


"Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
I said too much
They're not enough

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?


**from Grey's Anatomy soundtrack. ♥
the doctor is out
1:42 PM
.por un beso.

not today. just not today, okay?


ooh, gots two new sorta-new-but-actually-old songs from One Tree Hill's soundtrack.

"Mixtape" by Butch Walker

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mindI'm sleeping next to you.
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that,
about me and you

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel,
You don't know

Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me your friend
And I'm not the same person
From back in the day
in the back of the class that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words 'cause I lost them
The minute they fell out my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em and let's get messed up
and listen to probably...

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
about me and you


"Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self-control
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

The words are hushed, let's not get busted,
Just lay entwined here undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions..hey did you get some?
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close
they can't hear, so we can get some.

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together
The streets were wet and the gate was locked
So I jumped it, and let you in
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it
That you meant it, that you meant it
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.

**the lyrics in bold letters. gah. the best. pure art. ♥
the doctor is out
1:03 PM
.iREAD, uREAD.
Friday, February 09, 2007

so people do read my blog! ahaha. i thought my only visitor here was pepe. hehe. and my dear loser sister, who only leaves messages sa tagboard and never really reads the entries. bleh.

but oh. my. god. may iba pa palang nagbabasa-basa dito. syet. i now have reason to hide under a rock. and change my name. and my face, too. and live in alaska. kahiya.


i mean, i know i post stuff here for the whole wide world to see, kaya lang...basta. kahiya.




i can so just die right now. okay, wait. i'm praying that i get struck by lightning right about...



...



...



...now.



*ZAP!*


haha. windang. tagoink!
the doctor is out
11:34 PM
.malayo man, malapit din.
Monday, February 05, 2007

sweetier and i should SO be in a telecommunications commercial.
hindi nga magkasama physically, eh todo YM and text naman. and now, Skype! and with webcam pa!
aba!

haha. we can, like, endorse nokia and PLDT and globe and all the other communications stuff--phones, mobile phones, internet. astig.

aba! haha.
the doctor is out
3:01 PM
.i don't miss you anymore.
Saturday, February 03, 2007

...but then you IM-ed and texted. so i miss you na ulit.
ahaha!


i woke up today and i had yellowcab spaghetti and pizza for breakfast. and i read wuthering heights, pero di ko pa rin natatapos. and i talked to my mom and tita cory about my debut five months from now. i had a lot of things on my mind, kaya akala ko i was okay with the whole "missing you" thing na, and i don't miss him that much anymore.

and then nagtext sya. and nag-YM. and i'm still chatting with him right now. and i miss him na naman.

damn. it's like i'm suffering from drug withdrawal. haha.


*hug* for you. oh wait, bawal na. no more hugs. i'm cold. brr.
the doctor is out
12:23 PM
.berdey.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, LEE!!!

naks, debutante. see you later. haha.
the doctor is out
12:22 PM
.i'llshutup.
Friday, February 02, 2007

remind me to hit myself in the head for all the "i miss" stuff here.

it's just really weird. kasi hindi naman kami. friends lang naman. kaya it's weird. and god, how many times have i mentioned him na?! it's like, my theo prof always mentioning father clarc! oh god, this is crazy!

kasalanan bang mamiss yung tao? mehn. anyway, 'nuff sweetier talk. i dunno who among my blockmates are reading this--they probably think i'm crazy. i am. haha!

i'llshutup now.

let's talk about chemistry na lang. haha!
the doctor is out
8:30 PM
.iHATE.

iHATE.

iHATE not being with you. hindi ba talaga pwede?
ikaw kasi eh. haha. just kidding. still. damn.
if we have breakfast together, would we be making contra
the whole "hiwalayan" thingy? darn.

iHATE.




but you. you, iLOVE. ;)
the doctor is out
8:00 PM
.i miss.

i miss you. sobra.

*cry*
the doctor is out
7:49 PM
.score!.

yay! i got 17/20 in my chemlab test! wow. ganito pala pag nag-aaral! ahahaha! XP

anyway, this week has been...wow. yep, that about sums it up. wow.

actually, di ko na matandaan nangyari nung monday to wednesday eh. pero wow pa rin yung week na 'to. sabi ko lang. ahaha.

oh right, we did discus throwing for track and field nung monday. haha. astig sana sa leigh, magaling sa discus. kaya lang everyone started calling her "amazona" and "jane" (as in Tarzan and Jane. ahaha!) i ain't so good with it, pero okay lang. basta makapasa ng PE okay na. hehe. and alyssa and gayle and krystle and ruby keep bugging me about pepe. WE ARE JUST FRIENDS. no more, no less.

speaking of pepe, ay grabe! we so need to make hiwalay muna. people keep noticing. paki ba nila, right? but no, sobra na nga. "we are in a public place!!!" as katkua said nga. haha. "get a room!"

damn.


so now, actually, that's like what we're doing. but i so miss you...



P.S.
we shared a table with duncil and espiritu of the UST tigers nung thursday, sa mcdo. astig. ahaha. and daldal ni duncil. funny rin--super laughtrip.
the doctor is out
7:33 PM

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Wait
wait till the signs are right
Wait till the perfect time
and you will wait too long
he will be gone
-- Wait, Get Set Go

so please
baby please
open your heart
catch my disease
-- Catch My Disease, Ben Lee

but i did, i can
i was, i am
only human, living, dying
just like any fool who ever breathed
if love is blind
if love's a drug
it always is
it always was and
love was surely made for fools like me

-- Fools Like Me, Lisa Loeb

i would have stayed up
with you all night
had I known
how to save a life
-- How To Save A Life, The Fray

all that i am
all that i ever was
is here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see
if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
-- Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol

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