okay, so theology 1 bugs me -- A LOT. actually, not the whole subject, just the question thrown to us last week: IS THERE REALLY A GOD?

i know, i'm catholic and all, blah blah blah. pero i can't help thinking: what if there isn't really a God?

so i'm taking the whole idea from a skeptic's (or an atheist's) point of view. today, we talked about st. thomas' five ways to prove God's existence. these five ways would be:
1) The Argument From Motion
2) Causation Of Existence
3) Contingent and Neccessary Objects
4) The Argument From Degrees And Perfection
5) Order of the Universe

i'm not gonna go into details about all five ways--that'd be boring. but i'm throwing my thoughts on the subject:

What if there is no God? What is we, who since the beginning of time have been trying to find a cause for things (but never actually finding the truth behind them or how they were made), just made up some random, supernatural, all-powerful being to blame for these things that we cannot explain? One of the ways, that of degrees and perfection, states that God is the ultimate, the maximum of all--He's the "-est" and "most", so to speak. If so, just as He is the ultimate good in the whole universe, is He also the ultimate evil? Our professor said, of course He is not--that would be the devil. But what if there is no devil? St. Thomas, after all, only gave ways to prove God's existence, not the devil's.

syet. coming from someone like me who studies in a Catholic school, parang dapat sa akin i-crucify din eh. oh shit. will i be excommunicated by the Church?

it's just my view on things, and i obviously can't say these in front of my classmates and prof. kaso it's been bugging me for, like, ever, kaya i just needed to get my thoughts out.

for the record, i'm rooted to my beliefs. it's just...i'm probably reading too much of Jodi Picoult's "Keeping Faith"--and finding myself too absorbed with ian fletcher's words...

the good thing about studying in UST is that professors are usually either late or they don't come to class anymore.

the bad thing about studying at UST is that professors are usually either late or they don't come to class anymore.


haha. tagoink!


anyway, last-last week, our philosophy 2 prof gave us an orientation during the first meeting. then he didn't show up in class during our supposed next meeting. then today, we met with him again--although he was late. hehe.

philosophy class is A LOT like debate class with sir puno last school year. the only difference is that our philo teacher, mr. tadle, is MORE aggressive. he's like, dead scary. and i'm dead scared.

pero kanina, class was so shitty. kasi ang lesson lang is about what logic is, and what argument is, and blah blah blah. pero the way he discusses it-parang nasa courtroom kami. hehe. darn scary.

theology 1 is boring. well, basta ganun. math 101 is simple--algebra lang. pati roman numerals kasama pa! kaso scary din yung prof kaya parang sobrang nakaka-pressure...


darn. gotta go na.



QUESTION for the DAY (from THEO class): IS THERE REALLY A GOD?

yay!

am chatting with guro Ariel...nyahaha.

afer years of being lonely...

aww, yeah!

i'm in a computer shop--again. haha. guess dapat na masanay, since i'll probably be doing this for, like, ever. unless i get a laptop...

DADDY! i want a laptop!

haha.

college life is easy, so far. wala pa kasi mga ginagawa. gets kinda boring, kasi i go to school early tapos late ang prof. haay.

anyway, nakakailang pa rin sa netshop mag-blog...tagoink!


tagoink!

tagoink!

tagoink!

haha.

i am finally back home and using the Net! haha!

wala lang. just happy. haven't used a computer since i got to Manila. so now that i'm here in Laguna, todo computer! weee!

by the way, might get contact lenses this weekend! nyahaha!

darn, just when i was getting all hyped up with my first day in school, it turns out to NOT be my first day in school!

on a regular tuesday, my sched would be from 7am to 12nn. so i went to UST today at around 0645am, since all i have to do to get there is cross the street, hehe. so i get to UST through the dapitan gate, then i found myself a few feet past the commerce building. i'm hoping to bump into someone, kasi i'm feeling so small--other students (higher levels) were already wearing uniforms, and i was wearing casual clothes. talagang freshman lang, tsk tsk. luckily, i did bump into a few familiar faces--george khoo and arnel mercado, old classmates from MHCS! haha. so since sila rin tamad pumunta sa rooms nila (george and i both have classes at 07am, si arnel around lunchtime pa), we stood there lang, near the commerce building. dun kasi si george eh. tapos they bumped into an old classmate, si cholo. kaso he was going to class daw. eh since it was already 07am, i willed myself to say goodbye to them muna and headed to the medicine building.

pagdating ko sa med building, marami na rin freshmen--mga naka-casual clothes. hmm. i overheard some of them say na wala nga daw class, mass lang talaga. i was approached by two freshmen (uh, freshwomen?), whose names i forgot, and all three of us went to the security guard sa entrance ng med building. he said nga na wala daw pasok, so umalis na ako.

i went to go look for aizel and some other mary helpians, kasi pupunta daw sila sa mass. so i went to the UST chapel. on the way, nakita ko ulit sina george, arnel, and cholo. eh since wala pa daw sina aizel, i asked kung okay lang mag-hang out with them. cholo left nga lang, kasi he was gonna go to SM. naiwan ako with george and arnel. arnel asked me to accompany him sa CFAD building (the best UST building!) to get his uniforms, eh since wala naman ako gagawin, i went with him.

when we got there, medyo nagka-problem kami kasi only CFAD students are allowed to enter (duh!). eh ako sa college of nursing eh. since we don't have IDs yet, kailangan ipakita yung reg form. malalaman nila na hindi ako sa CFAD. pero sabi ko kay arnel ayos lang yan. so we went to the entrance, tapos habang pinapakita ni arnel yung reg form niya, i asked the guard, "saan po ba makukuha yung uniforms?" tapos the guard looked at me suspiciously, kasi nga hindi ako nag-present ng form, tapos sabi nung guard, "saang college ba?" ako, feeling taga-dun (siyempre, i had to pull it off!) looked at him na parang sinasabi ko "DUH!". i replied, "sa architecture, po," with a shrug. so sabi nung guard maghintay lang kami sa lobby. haha. yeah, mehn! nakapasok ako, di ba?! haha! aww yeah! we looked at the gallery muna, then we went back to the guard to ask him about the uniforms. bad trip, sabi ba naman, "bukas na lang kayo bumalik." what the???

so we went back to george--iniwan namin siya kasi hinihintay niya yung girlfriend niya, and at the same time tinataguan niya yung girl friend niya, named Ivy and Jen, resepctively. when we got to the benches, ang kasama naman niya si faith, yung old classmate namin. hehe. saya! kakatuwa panoorin si george, masyadong nagpapanic kasi hintay nang hintay kay ivy. pero after a few minutes, nag-start na mainis. naging impatient na. hehe.

nakita ko and nakipag-usap saglit sa 'kin yung mga mary helpians pagdating nila. kaso they went somewhere. si faith nagpasama sa atm then sa medicine building (sports science kasi siya eh). ivy finally arrived, kaya iniwan na namin sila. si arnel bumalik sa boarding house nila.

while we were in the med building, nagtext si george. nag-away daw sila ni ivy, hinatid na niya sa dorm. nung nag-meet up ulit kami (faith, george, and me), grabe--init ng ulo ni george. pumunta kami ng pacific suites para mag-Net. kaso daming tao, kakaantok. ang init pa! so kami ni faith umuwi na.

i went back to the dorm, exhausted. the heat was draining me! eh kaso yung aircon sa dorm is turned on only from 06pm to 06am! eh past one in the afternoon pa lang. so i went to bed. i woke up around two-something. texted mom to tell her i'm bored, hehe. she called me up, suggested i go to the library. then papa called me up, just to check how i'm doing on my "first" day. haay...

basta, boring talaga! arrrgghh!

it is independence day!

no, i'm not talking about the philippines' independence day. i'm talking about MY independence day. i'm moving to my dorm today! wahaha!

honestly, i'm dead scared. but, oh well, it's not like i have a choice. i am in no way gonna go back and forth from laguna to manila.

syet. what am i supposed to do in my dorm? eh balita ko no classes pa tomorrow. i'm actually making that as an excuse para hindi ako umalis muna ng house. mom said naman na i can stay, then just go to UST early tomorrow. haay...

damn, please someone help me...

i turned 17 yesterday. damn, i'm gettin' old.

just when i was starting to enjoy being 16, i suddenly turned 17! hmp! haha. as if may big difference...

anyway, people were so nice, greeting me at 12midnight. i remember si gracie yung first to greet, kasi sabi pa niya, "one year na lang!"--which probably pertains to that greeting i gave her when she turned 18: "haha, legal ka na!" after her, other people greeted. hanggang 13june, may nag-greet pa! just goes to show how people can be very thoughtful. thanks, guys.

we went to alabang yesterday, with kuya mitch, john, and cielo. mom asked me to pick up kuya mitch and john, so i drove to their house. gusto sana ni mama drive ko na yung car hanggang ATC, kaso i told her i ain't ready yet. so si kuya nag-drive to cielo's house then to ATC.

we ate lunch at gerry's grill, tapos we looked at phones. loser wants a v3i yata. i'm opting for an e730. we didn't buy yet, though. what we did buy were school shoes. i bought mine. then we went to festi, to hear mass.

maaga kaming dumating sa festi, so mom suggested we go watch a movie. i dunno how, pero we ended up watching Cars! yeah, Cars! haha. i'm 17 years old and watching Cars. pero it turned out to be a pretty cute movie--i like the little blue pitstop car who helped Lightning McQueen dun sa last part. and i like the movie's song: "Life is a Highway." heehee.

so yeah, we went to mass, ate at kenny roger's, then went home. siyempre kasama si cielo, so todo ingat namin sa kanya, hehe. approve na approve ako dun eh! hehe. iniingatan na yata siya ng buong barangay ocampo! hehe.

nice birthday, nice birthday.

P.S. nakita ko nga pala si loraine sa ATC. saya! nice to see an old classmate again. kaka-miss mga kulasa eh.

P.P.S. papa was so nice--he was tired from work, most probably, pero he waited pa until midnight to call me up and greet me happy birthday! aww...

started driving lessons last monday. nothin' pro, though. just with kuya mitch. though i think i'm learning more with kuya than with some damn driving school. i get to drive around some parts o' the 'hood. kaso medyo nakaka-conscious when people stare at me while driving (the window's down kasi eh). but anyhow, it felt nice to drive around.

and guess what? my mom and kuya mitch trusts me enough with the car! yay! mama said i could bring it to alabang during the weekends (haha, ATC baybeh!) as long as i don't go and make gala-gala during the weekdays after school. tuesdays and thursdays are free for me, starting at 12nn, so i can go wherever i want--pero sabi ni mama she'll let me have the car on weekends ("pag talagang marunong ka na mag-drive!!!" said mama). haha! yahoo!

sabi rin niya when the condo sa makati is finally done, i'd move there na (from my dorm) and she'll let me have the car so i wouldn't have to commute to UST anymore. haha! darn, that's nice...

we went to my dorm today to get some of my things settled. ayos lang, it's a pretty nice place naman kasi eh. and it's like, so near the school, so no problem with going to and from UST. yay!

syet, pasukan na! aaaahhh! haha. i don't think i'm ready yet. but to hell with being prepared! i've never in my whole ever been prepared for anything, so why be ready now? haha. bahala na.

sheesh! been long since i last blogged. one day doesn't really differ much from another eh, so there's really no point in blogging about how monotonous each days seems to be. i bet those la sallians have loads to tell, though--they've been like, going to school since May something-something. haha. panira sa bakasyon. tagoink!

Happy Birthday, John!

naks, my insan is now older than me. haha, for one week lang. nyak!

anyway. my life can now be turned to a noon-time soap opera. haha. feeling. weh.

john and the rest of the villafania family went here sa house. they just got back from hearing mass, i guess. it's john's birthday eh. so we got to talk about college. i've been bugging mom kasi, asking her saan ba ako pupunta on my first day in school, how will i do this and that. so kanina, nandito si nj (duh, kasama ng family). and mom asked nj to help me on my first day. hehe. samahan daw ako ng pinsan ko pagpasok sa school.

actually, the i was hoping for that. kaso, now, it's kinda embarassing. hehe.

we were joking na sasama na lang ako kay nj and paolo, gagala na lang sa kung saan. tita cory told nj na turuan daw ako mag-commute. so we were talking about that, blah blah blah. and then mom told them about what papa's been saying. hehe. papa was worried daw kasi eh, and kept asking mom questions like, "may kakainin ba si em sa school?" or "paano yan uuwi?" or "enough na ba allowance niya? baka kulang pa." heehee. my dad's the greatest. see? i'm my daddy's little one. papa went to as far s suggesting that mo stay with me daw muna for the first few weeks! what?! yeah, i know i'm dead scared about college, pero sobra yun noh! i'll be the laughing stock of the whole school! if not, they'd think i'm some spoiled brat who can't take care of myself.

what's just funny is that i've been shipped off to england on my own for two weeks when i was 15, and i've gone to germany with just my classmates when i was 16--and now i'll only be in manila, i'm 17, and my dad's dead worried about me! heehee. it's weird. funny. and weird.

anyway, i'll be fine in college. the only thing i really wanted to know was saan ba ako pupunta pagpumasok ako ng first day. do i go to some classroom or is there an assembly sa gym, or do we got to mass there? yun lang. haha.

oh well, now i got nj and paolo for bodyguards. heehee! tagoink!

for a bum, i'm getting busier and busier each day. weird.

haven't been updating, kasi there's nothing to tell really. hehe. basically, i'm just spending the last few days of summer:


*fixing my new LOST fanart site
::That Red Handprint::*
*making plans of watching
the whole season one of The OC again
(but never actually being able to)*
*wondering where i'm going to go
on my first day at UST*
*sleeping*
*eating*
*surfing the net*


ah, yes. bumming around is the best hobby man ever came up with.
*making more LOST stuff*