so the fortuner's here. that's a relief, an insurance of sorts--because now, i can use the lancer without having to worry about crashing it and not having another car to use in case of emergency, haha. wha--?

basta.

papa let me drive around the neighborhood this morning. cool, right?! NOT! the neighborhood's a shitty place--literally. some crazed guy tends cows here, and his cows take dump all around the subdivision. nobody tells Mr. Cow Guy to make his cows take a dump somewhere else--he's crazy.

so anyway, there we were. sunny day, great mood for some lazy driving. then SPLAT, SPLAT, SPLAT! ewww! gross. cowpies everywhere. shit. and i mean shit.

when we got back home, papa made me clean the car. but he was all nice about it. i told him i ain't cleanin' those cowpies. so he just made me wipe the car windows and the doors. he did the DIRRRTTY work--cleaning the tires. haha.

have you ever had that moment with someone whom you know, but you don't really talk to--then, by chance you end up just being in one place alone with that person? then you both look like idiots because there's this sort of barrier dividing you and the other person?

or like, imagine Clark Kent trying to talk to Lois Lane, but he just can't seem to get the words out and they end up just doing small talk.

stupid, noh? and weird. and awkward.


ha! i got thrown into that kind of situation--mainly because what was said to be a 1pm meeting at tinoko park turned out to be a 2pm chitchat. shoot.

pero anyway, that was yesterday. so friday, i have PE at 3-5pm. classes ended at 12nn. i went to tinoco park to meet with my groupmates for our panel discussion thingy in filipino. and, as is with most Pinoys, they texted me to say they were still at the library and they might be late. i go to the park anyway and who do i find? DJ--Mr. Class President DJ Caro. of all people naman! haay. don't get me wrong, the guy's nice and all--it's just that i don't talk to him. i don't really find the need to. and since we're not like seatmates naman, i don't make daldalan with him. and now--shet. siya lang yung nandon.

damn.


DJ: hi.
me: hi.
DJ: PE mo ngayon.
me: uh huh.
DJ: softball PE mo, di ba?
me: yup.
DJ: masaya ba?
me: okay lang. pagnaka-score, masaya.
DJ: ah. wala lang, para kasing masaya.
me: hmm. ikaw volleyball, di ba?
DJ: ah, oo.
me: okay lang naman?
DJ: ayos lang din.


yep, that's about it. then we stop talking, check back on our phones. i pretend to be texting someone when i'm just simple checking my prepaid balance. LONG moment of silence. no looking at each other, no smiling, no anything. it's like the other person doesn't exist. gawd, anong oras ba dadating yung groupmates namin?!

still quiet. the imaginary wall between us is huge.

shit. i don't even know kung maaawa ako sa kanya or not, haha. sa lahat ng tao na makakasama pa nya habang naghihintay sa groupmates namin, ako pa. ako, na hindi naman ganun kadaldal. the poor guy, hehe. oh well, nung dumating naman yung groupmates namin, things got pretty okay. no more tension, no more barrier, no more Clark-Lois moments. whatta relief.

This computer place is just crap. like shitty shitty crap crap CRAP!

so are the people here. which are mostly guys, by the way.



shit.

allow me to rant...

mukha ba akong batang gala? i mean, like, party girl-type, always out of the house, gimikera? do i look like someone who spends more time sa mall than sa house? because hello!!! i am so not like that! i swear! yah, really. i'd really prefer to stay home than go to the mall. i like to save money, not use it on clothes and stuff. and besides, i don't even know how to commute, noh! hmp!

hehe. that's just a mild ranting. mga tao kasi, pag nakita ako, iniisip yata nila na gimikera ako eh, hehe. kumusta naman 'yon?! me, the party girl? me, the mall girl? uh uh. no way.

see, a few weeks back, i was at 7-Eleven with paola, bianca, and leigh. we were talking about dorms. pao and i stay sa dorm. si bianca uwian sa QC, si leigh sa parañaque. i told them i stay sa dorm since i'm from laguna pa, and leigh was surprised. "taga-laguna ka, fides?!" she asked. i said yeah. what she said next totally cracked me up. sabi niya, "ows, talaga? hindi nga? taga-laguna ka? hindi ka kasi mukhang taga-laguna. mukha kang taga, uh, taga-dito!"

what?! me? a city girl? weh! haha. i don't think i even dress like city kids, but meh...

then everytime na our classes would be cut short since there's no prof, or some activity comes up, alyssa would ask me (in a joking manner), "o, saan na naman ang gimik mo ngayon?"

gimik? on a school day? i'm not that type of kid, sorry. bakit naman niya naisip yun? hehe.

then last thursday, i went to school wearing casual clothes. it was already three in afternoon, my classes ended at noon. on my way to the medicine building, nasalubong ko sina DJ and ian. ian was like, "hi fides. saan ka papunta?" so i answered, "ha? eh, ano, dyan lang. may pupuntahan lang ako sa med audi." then DJ was joking like, "hinde...gagala lang yan..."

why do people say that?! sheesh!

i asked miko kung hindi ba ako mukhang laguna kid, and if i always dress up like may gimik akong pupuntahan. without hesitation, she answered, "mukha kang galing dito sa manila. and kahit hindi ka magbihis, lagi kang mukhang gagala, noh! nasa mukha mo pa lang eh, tapos yung damit pa!"

whhhhaaaa---?! damn, these people gotta meet my loser sister who's like an upgraded version of me--when it comes to katarayan and brattiness and gimikera-looking. my elitist jinx.

anyway, enough of that. fine, gimikera kung gimikera. haha! di nga ako umattend ng acquaintance party sa metrobar eh. *sniff, sniff*. if i reach second year, i might go. hmmm...

i made pa-epal at the medicine auditorium last thursday, nung college week ng rehab science (PT, OT, SpS). haha. astig, may band competition and dance stuff. ang sweet nung mga may own competitions for their special someones. yung host na guy ang cool--and mukhang gwapo. i'm not sure since i was like way, way at the back of the auditorium. heehee. then ang ligalig nung mga PT interns na band. haha, pinakamasaya sila. and then i finally saw what i really came there for: the PT interns' dance number. ASTIG!! really. and to think ayaw ko sana pumunta since mag-isa lang ako. i just went kasi nahiya naman ako sa roommate ko (ate gpie), who was one of the dancers ng PT interns. in the end, i was glad i came. very glad.

oh, but the best part was the PT interns' video. they made a MTV of themselves, tapos yung song "Katawan." basta, bentang-benta!

hopefully, college week namin ganun din kasaya. :)

wahaha. "ang freaky, grabe!"

since kay pepe yung "ang creepy, grabe!", mine would be the "ang freaky, grabe!"

and by freaky i'm referring to pepe! haha. stop it with the whole staring thing--you (pepe) and glen and gimo! hmp! you guys freak me out, i swear! nyahaha! just kidding. pero talaga lang...

for the past few days (or has it been weeks?), pepe and glen and gimo have been doing this staring thing. mga nangtitrip lang ng tao. unfortunately, they seem to find me as a very good lab rat to "test" their "experiment." basta, ganun. tititigan lang nila ako when they think i'm not looking, then when they realize na i can feel them staring at me, hihintayin nila akong tumingin sa kanila and mag-react. haay, naku! kulit kulit! i can't count how many times they've laughed at me for looking. feel ko magpupustahan na sila kung titingin ba ako or hindi eh. and it doesn't help when they go, "ayan na, titingin na dito. ayan o, ayan o. (then i'll look at them). WAHAHAHAHAHA!"

darn! hehe. yesterday napagtripan na naman nila ako, tawa sila nang tawa and i was like, "haha, haha. kulit nyo!" and i was laughing along with them. then ivie saw them, hehe. naawa na yata sa akin eh, pinagsabihan sila. haha, tenchu po, ivie. :)

pero ayos lang naman. no harm done with the whole staring thing. only problem is, ngayon i always feel like someone's looking at me. paranoid, i guess. haha! kaya minsan si pepe, kapag nagkataon na magkatinginan kami, sasabihin pa niya, "hindi ikaw tinitingnan ko!"

heehee. those guys crack me up. makukulit nga lang talaga. pero ayos lang, patawa naman eh. ANG FREAKY, GRABE!

tagoink!

wahoo!

my mom texted me a couple of days back to tell me i'll be ninang to isaiah (er, randolph anthony) on his baptism this coming september 17. aww, how nice! haha. my second godchild, weh!

i miss that cute munchkin.

at least iyaboo's just across the street from our house.

oh. my. gosh.

have i been missing in action for the past two weeks?! really?! whoa.
haha. halatang busy...er, feeling busy. but yeah, busy nga talaga.

huh? anu? hehe. basta.

anyway. updates, updates.

august 22
i went home here sa laguna on the 20th of august, then since we didn't have classes during the 21st, i stayed sa house. mom was going to vietnam to "pick up" papa, because he was finally being transferred here sa 'pinas! yay! so anyway, ang class ko on tuesdays was at 7am. so what? i made sabay with mama going to manila on tuesday (22august) morning, like 4am! yah! i got to the dorm at 6am, hehe. lakas kasi ng loob na hindi pa bumalik sa dorm nang monday eh! well, i made it just in time for our 7am class in theology. haha, may quiz pa. syempre, since i don't bring school stuff when i go home sa laguna, walang pinag-aralan. oh well, a few blanks and some wild guesses, pwede na. haha. then our prof got mad at us, maingay daw kasi kami. so instead of discussing stuff in class after the test, nag-walk out siya. yay! free time! and since no philo (because prof tadle is also MIA, since like, ever) two and a half hours doing nothing. PAAARRR-TAAAAYY!! wahaha!

august 23
judgement day, also known as "sabayang pagbigkas 2006." hehe. yeah, the thing we've been practicing for like, the longest time. one section had almost the same costume as ours. another had almost the same entrance things as ours. but, anyway...*sigh* and no, we didn't win. but i am very much grateful to the people who led the class--dj, leigh, jay, ivie, ana. and the lights & sounds people--agatha and clyre (oh, and si pepe nga pala! hmp! nitutukso nyan ako eh! hehe.). after the sabayang pagbigkas, we had barrio fiesta! aww yeah! lamon nang lamon! puro puto and pansit palabok. congratulations to the people who decorated the classroom (which was like, three quarters of the class--kaya nung tinanong sa med audi kung nasaan ang class three wala na sumasagot, hehe). we won first place sa barrio fiesta! P1,000 din yung prize na yun!

august 26
huhuhu. can't go home. make up class in philo. ayos lang sana, kaso 2-5pm! panira ng sched! oh well, the positive side (if it can be called such) of staying sa dorm is that it's a good place to study--for prelims!! yikes!

*okay, sa UST kasi, three major exams. may monthly, prelims, then finals. darn those people who only have midterms and finals! hmp! hehe.*

august 30-september 01
waah!!! prelims na! of course, as expected, wala ako masagot. thank God for scantron sheets--puro multiple choices lang, haha. A, B, C, or D.

gawd, wala yata akong ipapasang subject this grading period. at least nung monthly nakasabit pa. paano na kaya ngayon?

mom and i made a deal. if i don't pass 50% of the tests, i don't have allowance for september. if i pass, i get an additional P3,000. hehe.

by the way, we had a game today sa PE. my PE course is softball. it's fun, actually--ayaw ko lang ng uniform. nyak! but yeah, at least i got to hit the ball and run to first base. thank goodness naka-two strikes si aizel (my ever-beloved teammate and gradeschool bestfriend--akalain mo nga naman nagkasama pa kami sa UST!), i was able to get to second and third base. then she hit the ball nicely during the third pitch, kaya i got back sa homebase! haha. after that, i drank a bottle of Nestea straight! haha.

AND NOW, I'M FINALLY BACK HOME SA LAGUNA! YAY! I MISSED NOT BEING AT HOME FOR TWO WEEKS!!