my mom seriously wants me out of the house. Seriously!

she saw this ad on the newspaper kasi, about Cathay Pacific's promo thingy. like, a youth camp of sorts. it's the "International Wilderness Experience" and it's offered for kids aged 16-18. it's gonna be in Johannesburg, South Africa.

yeah. AFRICA.

damn. ngayon ko nakikita how much my mom wants me out of the house. as if it's not enough that i spend the whole week in a dormitory in manila kapag school days, now she wants me in another country, in another continent! syet.

back in 2004, she used my name, my identity, and inquired in an england school that offers a summer school scholarship. and off i went to england. in 2005, she didn't hesitate to let me go on a two-week stay in germany for a youth congress. and now, she wants me to go and live in africa for 9 days. oh, what joy.

well, i always wanted to go to africa. but i was planning on that kapag tapos na ako with school. clearly, mama has other plans. maybe i'll get eaten by lions. or tigers. or elephants would squash me like a bug. or meerkats would scratch me to death. god, i need some sleep. kung anu-ano na naiisip ko. haha. i'm crap.

can't my mom just say, "get outta here!"? that's more convenient. and i don't have to risk getting on a plane to africa then the plane crashes and i find myself in a deserted island with polar bears and a hatch that needs to have numbers like 4 8 15 16 23 42 keyed in every 108minutes. haha. ooh, Lost. haha.

haha. just kiddin'. mama likes sending me to these sort of stuff. summer school in england. IBYC and world youth day in germany. too bad i ain't going to africa anytime soon--the promo pala isn't offered in the philippines. only in hong kong and vietnam and a bunch of other countries. but no philippines.

oh well, i guess i'm staying here. and i'm good with that.

okay, fine. in case YOU are reading this--just for your reading pleasure: you are a good reason why i'd rather stay here. but of course, you know that already. ;)

here's a song for you. cheer up, okay? *smiley-smiley*

All I Need - Firstcom

Lazy days
Dreaming in the mid-day's sun
Miles away
Thinking 'bout the things that I've done
I can't stay
Time to hit the road again

I ran along
Cruisin' down an empty road
So long
A hundred million miles to go
Same song
Playing on the radio

You know the days
The days gone by
It's like
They never end
Until tomorrow

Chorus:

Coz you are all I need
You're my lifetime guarantee
You are all I need
To be free
Coz I know
To Think of you
When I'm
down and feeling blue
You are all I need to be free
I need to be free

Sunny day
Staring at the blue-lit sky
Many ways
to dream and watch the world go by
Can't stay
Time to hit the road again

mr. conceited-and-cocky wants me to write about him. as always, i bend to his wishes.

i don't want to make it sound like i'm gushing about the guy and all, but...i dunno how else to write about him eh. so, whatev. people can think whatever they want of him and me. friends, more than friends, friends with benefits. take your pick. i don't care.

so since YOU are mr. center-of-my-universe (ugh, right! dream on...), i'll take the time to thank you and praise you and make you feel special. beh! XP

as i write this entry, i am chatting with him sa YM. and he keeps asking me to make him the topic of my next entry, and every once in a while, he's like, "so are you done yet?". damn. and now we're on skype. and he's bugging me about what i have written na. ha! he's tall. he's nice and funny. he has a way with people, even with the quiet ones. he's very makulit, and he makes everyday just so...crazy. and well, he just makes my day. heehee.

so what can i say? well, for starters, if people will tell me that i've changed a lot since i left high school, i can say, "just blame it on him." yeah. from the smallest things, like replying to messages now ( unlike before, when i can't even reply a "hi" to someone), to more noticeable ones like the way i dress and talk and mingle with people--blame it on him. o'course, i had my share, but for the most part, it's on him. haha. i wasn't maingay in class, then he goes walking into my little world and now, i'm like the person everyone just wishes would shut up na. my friends say i'm no longer that tomboy strutting around the corridors--now, the walk and talk are different. i tell him about these, and he says, "so i'm a good thing pala for you eh. nakatulong ako sa yo." haha. yeah, yeah, shut it. XP

well, maybe he did help me. whatev. basta, he got me all bright and shiny. haha. i like that he makes me laugh, he makes me maingay, he makes me...me. i like that i can talk to him about everything and anything and nothing at all--we can talk about the serious, the dirty, the funny, and the most walang kwentang stuff. i like that he treats me to yellow cab and mcdo, haha. i like that we meet up in the mornings before classes. i like that we hang out after school. i like having someone. i like having him around.

hmm. memories, memories.

• nursing week '06 started it all. usap-usap about this girl that he liked. uuy! haha.
• then he invited me to his birthday (18nov) blowout sa yellow cab.
• and i remember all the "sweetie" and "gummi bear" stuff. haha. seems like ages ago.
• christmas '06 and new year's eve were bearable kasi he was there--sort of. haha. when i needed someone to talk to about my saddest holidays, he was there.
• then when we came back to school, may belated christmas gift pa sya: a whole pack of red gummi bears. haha. he took time to pick out the red ones pa! so sweet.
• and when my grandma died, he was like, the shrink i talked to about the pain of loss. *sniff*
• oh, there was the time na we got caught by dj and doodz doing...um, something. nah, it was just a hug! haha.
• speaking of getting caught, i remember in mcdo. twice na kami nahuhuli ni paolo. he texted me, like, "MM, date kau sa mcdo ah. Tsk tsk. Haha." that was funny. then si NJ naman, he saw us sa labas ng mcdo. my grade school bestfriend aizel passes us by every morning sa mcdo, while we're having breakfast and she's going to class. haha. oh, what fun.
• one of my best memories with him: attending his dad's lecture! we were in the lecture hall with the third year medicine students, and his dad was lecturing on carotid endartectomy. or something like that.
• the library--the masungit na librarian wanted us out of the library. haha. i wonder why...?
• of course, my BEST memories include the fountain, the concert, and the
  benavides park! haha.

okay, so i know YOU have been waiting for this entry. this is the best i can come up with, since you keep bugging me na eh. kulit! basta, that's that. maybe aayusin ko na lang next time. haha.

thank you for our "moments." hope we can have more. kita-kits sa mcdo, dude. haha. :)
oh, i almost forgot. by his request, a picture of the two of us. haay, naku. you and your requests. haha. ;)

to tell, or not to tell? that is the question.

and what a moronic, idiotic, stupid question it is. what makes things worse is that...i know the answer, i just don't want to say it.

and so starts my complicated life. happy life, as i know it, is burning in hell. shit.

i was watching grey's--again--and i went down to the kitchen to get a drink. mom was in the kitchen din.

ME: hi mom.
MAMA: hello.
ME: need help with anything?
MAMA: no, not really.
ME: okay. oops, may ants dito. tsk tsk.
MAMA: o, ayan. linisin mo yan. tapos wipe the counters.
ME: wait! when i was asking you if you needed help, i didn't mean i was going to actually help you. i just asked you for the sake of asking. para naman masabi kong i at least offered help. but right now, i gotta go. i was watching upstairs. see ya!

so how exactly do you plan a debut?
because i have no freakin' idea and it's driving me crazy!

i need an event organizer. shit.

mama wants to get the car washed.
i was busy watching grey's anatomy.

MAMA: Em, paki-"pose" muna yang pinapanood mo and help kuya mitch na i-park ung car para malinis ni nanay racquel.
ME: What?

i follow her out to the garage. she opens the gate and i help her. kuya mitch parks the car sa garage.

ME: oh you meant "pause" ba kanina?
MAMA: oo nga. kasi ayaw mo tumigil manood eh.
ME: you said "pose."

seriously? seriously?!

i cannot believe myself. i am actually using Multiply. oh, my. what the--?! haha. idiot me.

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yes, i love myself. haha.

okay, so the first reaction i get from changing my layout was just so cute. sabi niya sad daw siya. kasi hindi na daw sya part of me. aww. haha. buti alam mo! XP

just kidding.



you're still a part of me. my blog. my whatever.
see? you're somewhere around here. a little speck of you is somewhere around this page. haha. did that help? ;)