okay, so theology 1 bugs me -- A LOT. actually, not the whole subject, just the question thrown to us last week: IS THERE REALLY A GOD?

i know, i'm catholic and all, blah blah blah. pero i can't help thinking: what if there isn't really a God?

so i'm taking the whole idea from a skeptic's (or an atheist's) point of view. today, we talked about st. thomas' five ways to prove God's existence. these five ways would be:
1) The Argument From Motion
2) Causation Of Existence
3) Contingent and Neccessary Objects
4) The Argument From Degrees And Perfection
5) Order of the Universe

i'm not gonna go into details about all five ways--that'd be boring. but i'm throwing my thoughts on the subject:

What if there is no God? What is we, who since the beginning of time have been trying to find a cause for things (but never actually finding the truth behind them or how they were made), just made up some random, supernatural, all-powerful being to blame for these things that we cannot explain? One of the ways, that of degrees and perfection, states that God is the ultimate, the maximum of all--He's the "-est" and "most", so to speak. If so, just as He is the ultimate good in the whole universe, is He also the ultimate evil? Our professor said, of course He is not--that would be the devil. But what if there is no devil? St. Thomas, after all, only gave ways to prove God's existence, not the devil's.

syet. coming from someone like me who studies in a Catholic school, parang dapat sa akin i-crucify din eh. oh shit. will i be excommunicated by the Church?

it's just my view on things, and i obviously can't say these in front of my classmates and prof. kaso it's been bugging me for, like, ever, kaya i just needed to get my thoughts out.

for the record, i'm rooted to my beliefs. it's just...i'm probably reading too much of Jodi Picoult's "Keeping Faith"--and finding myself too absorbed with ian fletcher's words...